New Chapter

2011-11-10T17:08:00.002+08:00

Omg ! Time really flies. It had been almost 9 months since i blogged about my life. This 9 months, many things had happened. Whether happy or sad.

Yup, im still tgt with my baby. Going 1 year le. Fast uh ? And i have graduated from my secondary school life. Everything is coming to an end soon. School, friends, teachers. Will we still keep in touch when we grow old ? Will we rmb all the laughters and tears we all shared ? No one can answer these question. Many years down the road, when we look back, will all these memories still be clearly etched in our mind, like it was just yesterday ?

Actually i dont want all these to end. When i just started to enjoy school, everything is ending. But at least, i left the school with no regrets. Me, and my friends had cleared our misunderstanding and we are fine now. Isnt that good ? I just want everyone to be happy and thats enough.

I always wonder if baby and I can really last forever. Yup, many people does not believe in forever. I dont believe either. Forever only exists in fairytale, isnt it ? But whatever it is, i will still love him with all my heart. He is the one that i wont leave him behind. I will always stand by his side no matter rain or shine. I promise, as long as there is me, i wont let him shed a tear for me. Im willing to do anything, just to make him happy, to see his smile. Coz if he's happy, im happy too. Even though i may not be the reason for his happiness.

I dont know when i will be back to blogging. Maybe 1 year ltr ? Or even longer. Coz life is getting busier. And i have no idea how im gonna cope with it. But lets take one step at a time. All the best, PeiLing ! You can do it de :) Loveyoubaby :)

2011-01-05T21:36:00.002+08:00

It's just the 5th day of a new year and it sucks like hell ! Everything is worst than 2010 . I dont know why): Hai ! Just hope that this year will past in a blink of an eye . And things will get better .

Maybe i'm too paranoid . But seeing you sit with her makes me feel uneasy . I dont know why): I guess i think too much . I'm really afraid that i'll lose you): Scare that you'll leave me one day . You promised me you wont . But promise doesn't mean anything . It's just a promise . It can be broken anytime . The feeling is really killing me): Hate this ! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ D:

2011-01-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

Yes, today's the first day of 2011 :D And i hope it will be a better yr !

Went to Boonlay countdown ytd with baby, Elaine and her boyf(: Had fun ! Met many of my primary school friends too ! Hehehe ~ I'm so happy that i can spend the first moment of 2011 with my dearest baby(: Ai si ta le<3 Hahaha !

2010-12-24T20:51:00.003+08:00

Have been going out for this one week, except for monday . Tuesday went to Orchard, Far East and Bugis with Yushan . Long time never meet her le . Had a great time with her(:

Wednesday went to Bugis and East Coast Park with Baby . Baby spent 30$ on arcade ._. Hahaha ! Trained to East Coast Park afterthat . Rent double bike . Hehehe ! And we built sandcastle also . Found 2 identical seashells . One for me, one for Baby :D

Thursday met Baby in the morning . Went fishing . But i was busy playing Baby's itouch :P Hahaha ! Afterthat, we went to fly kite . Hehehe ! So fun :D I had a lot of first time with Baby :D

Today, Baby came my house pei me . He bought candy floss for me . Hehehe ! So sweet~ Afterthat met mama at jp . Shopped around . Bought an anklet, earrings, tee shirt and mini skirt ^^ Hahaha ! Baby enjoying himself now . Jealous :P Hahaha ! Anyway, today is Christmas eve . Merry Christmas ! :D

2010-12-21T08:55:00.003+08:00

All i wanted was you . Simple ?

Yes, it sounds simple . But it's not ! Maybe you didn't realised, but you're always hurting me with your words . All those words may see nothing to you . But you know what ? It's enough to kill me . All i can do is cry, cry and cry . I don't want to let you know . Coz i don't want you to think that i'm weak . I'm paranoid .

This few days when you're away, I've no one to talk to . I'm so scared . But i don't know what i'm scared of . Scared of losing you ? I guess . Somehow, i realised that this love's gonna be difficult . Is just a few weeks of time and we have gone through so much . But i remembered what you said . 'We will make it through rain or shine, coz our love is genuine.' Yes, our love is genuine . But the problem is can we really make it through rain or shine ?

I'm tired now . I've no idea how long i can still hang on . Maybe love was never meant for me . I'm just too naive .

Love is the easiest thing there is . It's the layers of doubt, fear, and expectation that make it complicated .

2010-12-17T00:11:00.002+08:00

As you can see, my blogger is really dead . Have been already 1 month since i updated my blog . Time really flies . 2010 is coming to an end . And many things had really changed during this one month . But anyway, now i'm happy . Coz i've my dearest baby with me(: And i hope 2011 will be a better year . Everyone will be happy(:

When 2010 is coming to an end, it means that school holiday is also coming to the end . Two more weeks to school reopen . Another hectic year . O level ! Veryvery important . Lol ! But during this holiday, i guess my brain have rusted . Forgotten alot of things . Sigh !):

Gonna finish all my homework by this week . Left two more weeks to enjoy . Must really make use of the time before i see it fly past me again . HAHAHA !

Goodluck to me and everyone ! 2011 will be a better year :D

2010-11-17T18:14:00.003+08:00

To this, i've no answer .

Yes, i have given him another chance after struggling for so long . I dont know if i've made the right choice . But i'm not happy . Not becoz i dont want to be with him, but maybe becoz i've lost a friend, a friend that is so important to me .

Seriously, i still have a lot of doubts in him . I dont know if i could still trust him like i used to . My mind is in a whirl now . And he cant be by my side ): Hai ~

Darren, i dont know if you will see this, but i doubt you will . To say the truth, i feel sad losing a friend like you . You did once made my life beautiful . Without you, i cant be happy for the past few months . Its a regret that we ended up like this . If i had a choice, i wouldn't want this to happen . But reality is cruel . I'm really sorry towards you . I know i had hurt you in a way or another . I really wish i can make it up for you . But i guess its impossible . I should just disappear from your life . I really dont know how to face you this coming friday . Hai ): I'm really sorry .

2010-11-16T20:10:00.002+08:00

Somehow, i feel so lonely ):

Today is the last day of school . Like finally . Haha ! Lol . But somehow, i feel moody ): Hai ! Think of the past again): Nvm .

A lot of holiday assignment . Not a holiday at all ! Need to spend more time on study le . Time to buck up (: Feel like going to the beach . Just want to have some peace and get away for some time . I'm feeling so tired ): Seriously need to take a break before i restart my engine again (:

You know what ? Yes, I've changed . I'm not as nice as I used to be, because I don't want to get used or walked over . I don't trust anyone and tell them my secrets, because behind every fake smile is a backstabbing bitch . I distance myself from people because in the end, they're only going to leave . I've changed because I've realised that I'm the only person I can depend on .

2010-11-01T18:13:00.002+08:00

Hello, November ~

Long time no post . Lol ! Took back result slip last friday . Not very well done, but did improved as compared to mid yr (: Considering of dropping Physics now, i dont know if i should . Hai):

People are enjoying holidays when we still have to go back to school for 2 weeks 2 days -.- Wth ! Tiring ): Lesson officially ends on 16 November . Haha . Time, please go quickly and slow down from 17 November onwards ;) Hehehehe . I want more outings . Hahahaha

Went to kfc with Jodi they all after school . Laughing session again . Then went to library . They talked so loud, super paiseh ! :X Lol ! Homed afterthat .

Lots of holiday assignments undone . Sigh ): I WANT HOLIDAY !

2010-10-22T19:22:00.002+08:00

This is so true ~

Went to school today . Learning style workshop . Played heart attack :D HAHAHA ! Had a laughing session @ mac . Me and Yvonne kept laughing non-stop . The guys are sooooooo damn funny . HAHAHAHAHA ! Laugh ed until stomach damn pain lor :P Want ed to watch movie, but the guys dont want -.- Laugh ed @ Jodi, coz he wet his pants when watching horror movie . Omfg !~ HAHAHAHAHA

I want movie tml): I want Iphone): Sigh, i want so many things . HAHAHAHAHA !

I think i got the laughing beans from YvonneLee !~

2010-10-21T19:36:00.004+08:00

AEM is really fun ! FUN TO THE MAX ! :D

Had lectures + Lab Practicals + Field trips during the 4 days . Went to Mycofarm & AVA . Learnt a lot of new things . Somehow, i miss Ngee Ann Poly, all the beloved buddies (QinYi, Jolene, Qiaodan, Dionne, Harrison & Steven) and not forgetting the lecturers (Dr Timothy Tan, Dr New Jen Yan & Dr Charmaine) . I'll nvr forget them ! Love them maxmaxmax !♥

So ytd was the last day of AEM . Sad): Went back school today . It was totally different for the lectures we have . They still provide us with tea break . Everyday ! Omgosh !~ Fat die us :X HAHAHA

Anyway, we know our overall marks for all the subjects today . Not very satisfied ): Hai ! My report slip has all A's, B's, C's & D's . Pro uh ? HAHAHA . Kop all :X HEHEHEHE . Played concentration also . Had a good time laughing :P Hmm, tml having learning style workshop . Coz we missed one last fri . Sian ): Still need go school . I want slp de ! Argh !

Work harder !
Aim : Ngee Ann Poly, Microbiology !♥

2010-10-14T19:43:00.003+08:00

How do you expect me to be the same when everything had changed ?

Exam are finally over !~ Time to enjoy :D Hehehehe

Having AEM tml . So sian . Still thought can enjoy my 3days of holiday): In the end only left 1day . Sadsad ~ Feel like going out . Hai ~ Need to save money le . Im broke):

Somehow, im feeling moody now): Sigh .

Just because i finally got over you, doesn't mean there aren't days when it all comes rushing back .

2010-10-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

Suddenly, i realised that from the day you left me, i changed a lot . My life had also being messed up . Really messed up . I cried ytd, coz im at a lost . I dont know what to do . I dont want to hurt those ppl around . Those people that loves me a lot . But reality needs me to make a choice . No matter what choice i make, it will hurt somebody in the end . I'm struggling . How i wish someone can pull me out of this situation .

If i could have a wish right now, i wish that what happened that day didnt happened, and we're still tgt . Mayb things wont turn out to be like this now . But i know it's impossible for this wish to come true ): I've tried really really hard to forget you, i thought i could . But after a long time, i realised i still return to the time you left me . It's just like a nightmare that i just cant simply erase off . Why cant you just tell me how you actually feel ? You want me to go back to you, but you wont fight for me . What do you want ? Please tell me ..

You gotta face it, yourself !

2010-10-10T11:49:00.005+08:00

101010, a nice date yet ...

Longlong time no post le . Becoz of exam, that's why . Had been waking up at 3am everyday for the past few days to study . Guai hor ? No choice . Left 3 more papers . Killing papers . Hai): Amath P2, Physics & Biology . These are enough to kill me . Hang on .

Spent weekends outside studying . Ltr going out study too . Cant concentrate at home . Especially when i'm in this kind of mood . Sigh ): Hope things will get better . No marking day for me . Have AEM course from 15-20 Oct . Sian, i kinda need a break ~

I want exam to end soon . I want to go out . I want to escape from this world, to forget every single thing that's driving me crazy . All those choices that i've to choose from . I hate it ! I miss my sticky): I need them to cheer me up now): Seriously ..

Words cant describe my feelings now .

2010-10-02T07:15:00.002+08:00

Long time no post le ~ Times really flies . 2 more days to EOY . And yet i dont seem to have started my revision): Sigh !~ Going to school ltr, for math remedial .

Wednesday had both language Paper 1 . Sort of screwed up my EL Paper 1): Got to work harder on Paper 2 this coming Monday .

Imisshim .

2010-09-25T10:16:00.003+08:00

Exams are really killing me this few days . Just class test only, not even EOY yet . Sigh ! Havent start my revision . I guess i should really start studying before its too late):

Somehow, now i'm not in the mood to study . But i must really try my best not to be affected by anything anymore . Not again(: Tidy my mood & it's time to study ! Jiayou ~

You still mean everything to me, but you're just not worth my fight anymore .

2010-09-22T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hai ! Tml having Emath test . Havent study yet): Sad . Physics h/w not done yet also . Sigh ! Tml waking up early to study le . No choice): Buck up bah ! Jiayou :D

2010-09-20T18:12:00.002+08:00

Am i making the right choice ? Somehow, i regretted):

This week sucks . Many tests -,- Hai !~ Tml having history and chinese compo test . Wth ! Seriously, i've no mood to study . Feeling so stress up): I dont want to cry anymore ! Hai): Enough of crying okay ! Stay strong ! You have to !

No one knows what the hell i'm going through):

2010-09-20T05:23:00.003+08:00

An hour ltr i'm going to school . Now, the thoughts of going to school really scares me . I dont know what i can look forward to in school . It's just plain boredom & loneliness that's killing me . Suddenly, i realised that things are getting worse day by day . Maybe its just my fault . And i deserve to suffer the consequences . What happened ytd was like a nightmare to me, that i cant erased off from my life . And maybe i will regret one day . I really dont know .

Hai, i guess what's important now is to concentrate on my studies bah . Nothing esle except studying):

I was nvr a good friend, neither can i be one .

2010-09-19T17:48:00.002+08:00

Everything is hurting so much . I cried again today): I feel so weak . All i can do cry . Why ? Now, i'm even afraid to cry . I'm afraid of breaking now in front of people . All i can do is lock myself in the room & cry . What the fuck is this ? I'm really tired .

I've been hurting people around me . I know i sucks . Sucks to the max ! Fuck my life luh ! Just feel like ending every single things now . So that i wont cry anymore, not ever again .

Today sucks !):

2010-09-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

Cute !(:

Tired tired now): Cca today was bored . Ended @ 4+ . Went to fico, then basketball court with girlf;) Chat chat & home-d @ 6+ . Went home with Darren(:

EOY is coming . Omgosh !~ Gonna start mugging soon . Hope i really have the motivation to do so(: Haha ! Off-ed to slp . Goodnight !(:

Have i really moved on ?

2010-09-14T00:33:00.003+08:00

Hmm, i realised that i've problem falling aslp nowadays . Looking at the time now & i'm still wide awake . Wthell is this ? -,- I seriously need to force myself to slp now before i really doze off in class tml . Sigh ! What's wrong with me ?): SLP NOW !

I'm afraid to start a new relationship becoz i dont know how it will turn out to be ):

2010-09-13T18:39:00.002+08:00

I'm sick): Having a flu . Hate flu, make my nose damn red -,- First day of school . Was alright ? Lol ! Hmm, lots of holiday assignments not completed :X Shall finish them tonight (: This is a short term . Must really buck up alrdy, before time runs out . Blablabla ~ I finished my sticky . Yeap, that's fast . Lol ! I want more ): Hmm..

2010-09-12T22:40:00.007+08:00

If i leave one day, dont blame me, coz you nvr ask me to stay .

End of holiday): Sad . Feeling no mood now . Hai . Haven't finish my holiday assignment & tml having test -,- Sian ttm luh . Sigh, no life .

Tml he going ns le . Mayb is a good thing bah . At least i can try to forget him . Hai): Sent him a long msg ytd night . But he nvr receive): Nvm, mayb he will nvr see what i want to tell him . Hai):

I was nvr important in your life .

2010-09-12T01:19:00.003+08:00

I'm done, crying alone .

Out to buy sticky today with Darren(: HAHA . Train-ed to Clarke Quay . But there very less only . Thought Bugis got sell, so train-ed there . In the end dont have -,- Watched movie @ Iluma . Then train-ed back to Clarke Quay to buy sticky . Lol ! Lame lor keep train here train there . HAHA . Had fun today luh(:

There seems to be so many memories of you being left behind . No matter where i go, it'll remind me of us . I miss-ed those times . Remembering our first month, we went to Clarke Quay . Walking around, having fun, teasing one another . Remembering the first time we spent our night tgt, me lying in your arms . The first time you asked me for 'breakup' . How i cried over the phone . You told me that you will nvr leave, coz you dunwan other guys to hurt me . You said you cried too, becoz i cried . All those promises that we made to one another . Everything is just like a few days ago, its still so clearly printed in my mind . Every single detail of you that i will nvr forget . Yes, time passes really quickly, one more day and you're going in ns . 2 yrs, i really dont what will happen . Things have changes so much this few weeks . It seems like a dream to me . How we end up breaking becoz of your revenge . I dont know if you've regretted your choice . I wonder if we've not breakup, how would things be now . Sometimes, i really dont know what you're thinking . I feel that i'm not important to you . Even if you lose me, you wouldn't mind . I just need a simple word from you . Tell me that you still love me, and you want me to wait for you . Isit so difficult ? Do you want to cry after losing me ? I really wished you can see what i'm typing here . But i doubt you will . Bye & takecares .

I Love You .

2010-09-09T23:19:00.002+08:00

Happy 4th Month Anniversary . I'm the only one left counting on .

Went out to PlazaSing today . Watch-ed Step Up 3D . Not bad . Walk-ed walk-ed ard . Home-d @ 6PM . I shall finish my h/w by tml . Isit possible ? Hmm, i hope so(: Saturday going out with Darren to buy sticky . HAHA . LOL ! I want sticky(:

Hmm, i'm feeling tired alrdy . Shall slp soon . Goodnight !(:

You always mess up my feelings .

2010-09-08T23:45:00.002+08:00

If we hasn't break, tml will be our 4th month anniversary .

Feeling down all of a sudden . I dont know why either . I want to cry, but no tears come out): I'm tired of hoping . Hoping for all those shyt to happen when it wont . Hai ): I dont know what's wrong, but this few week got 4 ppl say want jio me . Lol ! Like so ridiculous lor . Whatever .

Tml is thurs le . Still have a few homework haven't finish . Tml going out, i guess ? Lol . Hai ! Dont feel like posting le . Bye !

I hate you, for messing with my life):

2010-09-06T18:20:00.002+08:00

Saw our couple ring . & i think of you once again):

Overslpt today . Was supposed to meet Darren @ 0810 but i woke up @ 0800 . LOL ! Kinda tired lor . Slpt too late the night before . Was chiong-ing Amath worksheet .

English remedial . Follow-ed by Physics . Jp & home-d . I'm hungry now): Tml still have remedial . Hai ! Tired to the max): Meeting Yvonne tml . Scare i overslp again :X HAHAHAHA . I need morning calls . LOL !

Will everything be fine ?

2010-09-05T21:12:00.003+08:00

I'll try my best .

Went out to do homework today . Home-d @ 5+ . Haven't complete my trigonometry worksheets yet . HAHA . Gonna be panda today . LOL !

Tml having a long day of remedial . Tiring luh): Until 3.30PM sia . I think by that time i'm alrdy dead . LOL !

Things started to change since you left . And those changes really surprise me . Sigh !

Should i go into a new r/s just to forget you ? I doubt i should .

2010-09-04T22:29:00.003+08:00

I'm losing myself, totally !

My life is so mess-ed up ! Fuck la ! I've the urge to tear once again . Hai . Feel so weak . I really need you in my life . Without you, i'm in a mess . I really dont know what to do now ): I thought i could forget you by making more friends, but it dont seems to work at all . Instead, i got more problems stacking up day by day . And i really regretted it . Hai !

I just miss the days when you're by my side . But now, all i get from you is 'one-word' message ): Yeah, it's all my fault . I'm the reason for all this problems . Serve me right !

2010-09-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

Faith . Trust . & Hope .

Last day of school . Hehe ! Finally holiday le . But actually it's a busy holiday lo . Sadsad): Lots of holiday assignments . And still having remedials next week . Which is like wth lo -,- One wk only . Cannot let us rest & play awhile meh ?

No cca today . School ends @ 12.30PM . Home-d to bath & met Aiping @ jp . First time wear lens go out :X Lol ! Went pool @ safra . First time playing . Very clumsy . Haha, super paiseh lo :X LOLLOL ! Shopp-ed around . Spent money on accessories . I need $$$ desperately now . If not my holiday would really be a pathetic one): Sighsigh ! Bus-ed to westwood . Coz Aiping want see doggy . I went home home first, leaving Aiping behind . So bad of me . Opps !

Hmm, weekend tml . Hope that i can try to finish my holiday assignment as soon as possible . Praypray . Lol !

I dont know what i'm doing now is right or wrong . Feeling so fuckup ! I just want someone to care & love me . Isit too much to ask for ? Sighsigh . I'm a badbad girl): I know i shouldn't be doing this . I'm sorry .

I've really move on, right ?

2010-09-02T17:46:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't be hoping anymore .

Get back result slip today . Not really well done . Especially Biology & Physics . Sigh !): Went to jp w/ Jiamin . Home-d @ 4PM . Tml no cca . Can go home @ 12.30PM le . Like finally lor . LOL !

We'll say goodbye and you'll walk away the way you always do. Then we’ll both pretend that nothing happened and we never knew each other. Because that’s what happens. You find people, and then you lose them. And it’s those goodbyes, the ones you thought you’d never have to say that hurt the most.

2010-09-01T19:36:00.002+08:00

Today, i realised that i still cry for you .

Long time nvr post le . Nth much to post actually . Last saturday concert was okay . Although we didn't really play well . Nvm, it's over anyway . Sunday slpt the whole day . Monday . School & jp . Yesterday . Teacher's day celebration . Jp & home-d . Nvr went back primary school . Coz very less friends go back .

No school today . Wasted my day away . I dont know why i cried again today . Hai .

Past few days, i thought i had alrdy get used of not getting your msg . I thought i had alrdy let you go . But today, i dont know what's wrong with me . I think of you again . And i cried ):

2010-08-27T20:54:00.002+08:00

It's so true):

Concert is tml . Hai ): Worried .

Head fucking pain now . Got hit by the stupid guitar -,- Homed @ 7PM . Super tired now .

In a bad bad mood again . Sigh ! I'm always like that recently . Used to it . Really really tired . I thought i'm alright . But i guess i'm not):

I've no motivation to move on .

2010-08-26T22:04:00.002+08:00

Do i ever still cross you mind ?

I'm really worn out this few days . I seriously need to have some rest . Concert is just a day away . And our playing is still cmi . Hai, really worry that things will go wrong on that day): Sigh ! If only we've put in more effort . Whatever, it's over now . No point saying all this .

One more week to holiday . Looking forward . However, he's going ns ): Hai !

It don't make a difference, anymore .

2010-08-24T19:07:00.002+08:00

Dear heart, why him ?

Didn went to school today . Woke up in the morning . Not feeling well . So rest at home . Slpt the whole day . Lol ! Went to take h/w from Shuiying(: And bus-ed to jp to pass daddy something . Homed @ 6 .

Feel better now . School tml . Hope i dont fall sick anymore . Concert is coming in 4days time . Cant afford to fall sick .

I wish you would come back .
But i cant give the best .
So i rather i let you go .

2010-08-23T18:03:00.002+08:00

Have the urge to cry again):

Feeling so sick after my lunch . Guess i'll throw up anytime . Wanna skip school tml): So weak & tired now . Hai !

Failed my physics test badly . Hai): Only can blame me for not studying . My report slip is gonna be real ugly . Sigh ! In a bad bad mood now . When can i truely be happy once again ? I doubt i can):

Miserable life):

2010-08-22T14:37:00.002+08:00

But i'll still wait(:

I'm feeling better alrdy . Finally sort out all my thoughts(: I'll always be there for him whenever he needs me . I promise(: I'll care & love him just like before .

Staring @ physics question now . Dont feel like doing ): Wanna take a nap first . Haha!

Happy Birthday, Daddy ! I♥You

2010-08-21T23:16:00.002+08:00

Time spent with you today was indeed great . But like what you've say, it might be the last time . Yup, last time . This may be the very last memory you give me . No matter what, i'll treasure it . I'll buried it in the bottom of my heart . Nvr forgotten(:

After tonight, i'll stop dwelling about this anymore . I'm gonna start afresh . Yes, all over again !

Will i've the courage to let go ?

2010-08-21T19:40:00.002+08:00

I'm tired . Really really tired . Tired of crying . Tired of everything):

I cried again today . I thought i'll nvr cry anymore . But i simply cant control myself . When i hugg-ed you, i just have the urge to cry . Hai): Why you've to treat me so good ? You know, the more you treat me well, the more i cant let you go ? I just wish i could hugg-ed you tightly & dont let go . Hai ! Mayb, we're not destiny to be tgt ba . You're just gonna be one part of my story in my life . But i really cant bear .

My feeling is so complicated now . Many thoughts surrounding my mind . Make me so fuckup & no mood . I really feel like hurting myself . At least i could feel some pain . I really feel so numb now . Why cant i stop crying ? I feel so weak & broken): Hai !

Anyway, pass-ed him birthday present & train-ed back to jurongp . Decided to find some place to be alone . Met Yushan afterthat(: Shop shop, chat chat & homed @ 6+ .

I want you to come back . Yes, i want .
I want you to be happy . Yes, i want .
I want you to be okay . Yes, i want .
But i dont want us to become like this):

2010-08-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

Hai, i no longer know how i feel .

Lesson as usual . PE was fun . Played captain's ball . School ended @ 12:30PM . Went for cca . Hai, really disappointed in ourselves . Cant play a single song well . In the end, we've to change the song . Hai ! Anyway, there's no point holding on to the song when we cant play well): Sigh ! Homed @ 6PM .

Tml going out . Meeting people . Mayb this is the last time we'll meet ? I really dont know what will happen in the future . And i'm scare to know . So i've alrdy prepared for the worst .

Seeing someone you love, love someone else, really hurts .

2010-08-19T21:17:00.002+08:00

I'm completely in a bad bad mood now . Really really disappointed in myself . Hai, get test paper today . Although i did passed, but i hate myself for not working harder, not putting in more effort . I could have done better if i didn make all those stupid mistakes): Hai .

Cca didn make my mood any better . Instead, it got worse . Hai, so pissed off when i cant get things right ! Ahhhhh ! I really need to vent my anger somewhere before i really break down .

Fuckyou, life ! Stop playing jokes with me .

2010-08-18T19:23:00.002+08:00

That's exactly how i'm feeling now):

I care alot, but i must act as though i dont care . This kind of feeling really sucks okay ! Hai ! Letting go is really so difficult . However, what's the point of holding on to something that give you no good ? Like what mrchan said . Holding on will only drag you down . Mayb letting go will be better .

Easy say, but difficult to achieve . Alot of time is need to take away all the memories . Hai, sometime i really find myself so irritating . Pushing someone away when it hurts me so much . Wthell is this ? Ahhhhh~ Yes, i'm stupid . Real stupid . Whatever luh . It dont matter now . I've to stop whining & crying . I dont want to be so weak . I'll be strong . Yes, i'll ! I'll fight back all the feelings & tears . I'll stop thinking so much . I'll wish you all the best and be happy with her . Yes, this is what i'm gonna do !

Blablabla ~ School = Tiring = Slp in class -,- Me is getting from bad to worse . Dozed off in class almost everyday . Am i really so tired ? Mayb i really am . I realised i really have to buck up now . Time is running out . Less than 2mth to EYE . But how am i gonna motivate myself ? I'm losing myself slowly . I really miss the old me . The one who can concentrate on my studies . But now, my attitude towards studies is, 'Aiya, heck care la . Fail then fail lo' . Hai ! I must change ! C.H.A.N.G.E ! It's time to change . Buck up, buck up !

No point whining & crying when i've alrdy decided to let you go .

2010-08-16T18:14:00.002+08:00

Sigh !

I'm feeling super slpy now . Slp late ytd night . That's why i'm so slpy now . Daydream-ed during physics . Coz it's really boring . Opps ! Gonna flunk my Amath test . 4marks gone . No time to do . Urgh ! Wthell is this ?

Jp w/ jiamin . Crapped a lot . Maybe this is the only way i can forget you temporary ba . But i miss you whenever i'm alone): Nvm, dont talk about this le . Bought gummy sweet . Walked around . Homed @ 5PM . H/w not done yet): No mood to do . Sighsighsigh !

I want things to get better !

2010-08-15T21:12:00.003+08:00

But now, it's hard for me to fall aslp too .

My life is really pathetic right now . Many things had happened recently, and i really need a lot of time to tune myself back . I wonder how much time i need . Sigh !):

Amath test tml . I guess i've finish studying ? I not sure either . Ahhhhhh ! Hate my life to the max ! Tml will be a bad bad day too . Getting back test paper . I guess i'll cry upon seeing the marks . Hai, no use . Who tell me work hard ? It's expected .

How long will it take to return to normal ?

2010-08-15T13:09:00.003+08:00

I cried, again . Those memories of you really hurts alot .

Many asked me to give up on you . But i've no idea what's right or wrong . Sometimes, i really hate you . Coz you dont understand what i'm going through . But sometimes, i miss you . Miss how you care for me . How you asked me to slp early, how you would worry about me . And i told myself you still love me . I know, i'm naive .

我舍不得可是时间回不去了

爱你很值得只是该停了

没有我你要好好的

我舍不得最后一次抱紧你了

我们错过的错了就错了

不用担心我我走了

2010-08-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

I miss childhood and the carefree days . When getting hurt just meant falling over and scraping our hands or knees . When everyone just became friends instantly . When fights happened only because someone else took your crayon and when we worked so hard for a sticker or a sweet .

I really wish i could go back to those days .

2010-08-14T17:04:00.002+08:00

I don't deny that i still miss you . Will you really come back to me after 2yrs ? I'm really in doubt .

Woke up @ 10AM today . Went to jp w/ mama . Shopped awhile then went to aunt's house . Got baby . Very cute . A few days old only . Nvr see such a small baby before . Haha . Homed @ 3PM .

Time really passes so quickly lo . Half a day has gone when i did nothing much . Sigh~

It's not the breakup that hurts, but the flashbacks that follow .

2010-08-14T01:32:00.003+08:00

Looking @ the time . It's 1.32AM now . And guess what ? I'm still having my supper . Haha;) Just done chatting with Pingping . Have a great time laughing . Kekes(: Okay, i think i'll gain a lot weight :X Lol ! Slp soon .

Somehow, i miss you so much . I miss having late night conversation with you):

2010-08-13T20:58:00.002+08:00

Everything is fine now(:
I'll wait for you . 2yrs . Meanwhile, i'll concentrate on my studies . Please dont let me be disappointed okay ?

Common test today sucks . Especially physics -,- Totally dont know how to do . Anyway, expected luh . Nvr study how to do ? Lol ! Chemistry was easy(: Lesson ended @ 12.30PM . Met Pingping~ She's so sweet . Cheer me up;) Thanks alot yeah, pretty !

Cca was fun . Laughing session with mryeo:D He's funny . Haha . Homed @ 7PM . Finally can take a break tml . Gonna give myself a really good rest(:

2010-08-12T22:09:00.003+08:00

I've fucking no mood to study now . How am i gonna survive through the 2 test tml ? I guess i'll fail . I really hate to receive bad news the day before an exam . Coz i fucking cant concentrate . I cant fall aslp now too . The moment i lie on the bed, i start to think a lot & cry . I text you, you nvr reply . I guess you wont reply me anymore . Nvr again . I didn expect the first msg i receive from you would be a break up msg . If like this, i would rather i dont receive any msg from you .

Anyway, you've given me a choice . But i chose to leave . I know i cant give you the best, so i'm leaving . I hope you'll be happier(:

I dont know if i can live without you . But i'll my best to be strong when you're not with me .

I need you .

2010-08-12T18:25:00.002+08:00

Why do you've to tell me this at this time ? How am i going to concentrate with this mood ? Everything is so sudden . I really cant believe . It's really hurts so much . I cried, but i've to be strong .

You said you wont leave me . But now you did . Where are all the promises that you make to me ? How am i going to trust you in the future ? I'm fucking confused now . Argh ! Please tell that this is a joke you're playing on me .

2010-08-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

So Cute ! I want 'em all ! LOL !

Common test today was alright . But doubt i'll do well -,- Lesson = Boring . Homed @ 2PM .

Finished studying Maths . Moving on to Biology . I guess i'll have to skip my dreams for tonight . Byebye!(:

2days .

2010-08-10T21:06:00.000+08:00

One day nvr heard from you le . Miss you so much):

Waiting for your call .

2010-08-10T14:35:00.002+08:00

You melt my heart once again(:

I really got to study uh . But i dont know how to start -,-

Baby cant sms me until he top up his phone . Hais): Wonder when will he msg me again . My phone seems dead w/o his msg . Anyway, chat on phone last night with him . He's so sweet(: Haha . Lol !

Short update . Must study ltr ! Hope that he'll call or text me soon(:

2010-08-09T22:56:00.002+08:00

I've no mood to study . How ? How ? How ? Wasted 3 days alrdy . Left w/ 1 day . Sigh~ I thinking i'm gonna fail my Common Test -,- Really dont know what's the hell wrong with me . Argh~

Where's the old me ?

2010-08-09T20:25:00.003+08:00

I'm in a grumpy mood this few days . Very very bad mood . Feel like scolding everyone i see -,- Whatever . Fuck it ! Dont feel like giving a damn .

I dont care .

2010-08-08T19:30:00.001+08:00

I'm missing you so much, baby):
Tml is our 3rd month . Do you still rmb ?

2010-08-08T12:18:00.003+08:00

This few days without you, i realised you're very important to me . I miss you a lot . Just wish i can hug you tightly now):

I've no mood to study . Just wasting my time away . Sigh !

I'm sorry .

2010-08-07T19:10:00.003+08:00

I miss you when you're not around .

Jp today . Passed Shuiying her present . And waited for mama to come . Walked around . Bought the black pant needed for the concert . Homed afterthat .

Slpt and woke up @ 5 . Tired . Mayb studying ltr . Buck up, Peiling !~

I need you .

2010-08-06T17:28:00.003+08:00

Really lost .

Cultural Expression was fun . Especially before the whole programme ends . Sang songs . Was super duper high . Released @ 11AM . Went fico . Then back to school for remedial . Ended @ 1PM . Bused to jp with Yvonne & Jiamin . Have lunch & bought Shuiying's present . Homed afterthat .

Will be busy this 4days . Common test next week . Really need to buck up !

2010-08-05T19:05:00.003+08:00

Can we last ?

I feel so numb . I dont know how i feel .

Pass baby my laptop in the morning . Bused to school . Lesson . Fall aslp during CL test . Lesson ended @ 2.30PM . Stayed back for SS project . Finished @ 4+ . Bused to jp to take back my laptop . Walked awhile and homed .

Everything seems to change so fast . I feel that i'm a burden to you . I'm such a nuisance, i guess .

2010-08-04T19:16:00.003+08:00

I'm not good enough .

Keep dozing off during lesson nowadays . Wonder what's wrong with me . It's hard to keep me awake . There'll surely be some part of the lesson that i suddenly feel so slpy . Whatever ! Mayb i'm just lack of slp . Stayed back in school to tidy guitar room . Homed @ 5 . Many things undone . Got to get it done soon . Sigh ~

I dont know why i like to think so much . I just feel that i'm not good enough . Hais ~ I'm such a nuisance .

Failure .

2010-08-03T17:50:00.004+08:00

I love you♥

Pushball was fun . Won twice . Haha ! Me fell down two times . Coz i no more energy . Lol ! Lesson as per normal . Almost fall aslp during mother tongue . So slpy . Homed @ 3PM .

Tired tired now . Lots of h/w not done yet . Sigh ~ Gonna finish them ltr, i guess .

Wish you were by my side .

2010-08-02T18:35:00.003+08:00

Forever .

Lalala~ I'm bored . I think i seriously need to buck up on my studies le . Failed my physics -,- Looking forward to the short break . I want a break ! Haha;)

Am I your only ?

2010-08-01T19:32:00.003+08:00

He's that one person who will always be in my heart . He's that person who I would like to keep for the rest of my life . He's that person who I will always love, and will never have the will or strength to move on from . He's that person who I will always remember making me feel special, and of believing in me when no one else was . He's that person who will always make me giddy and make me smile brightly and widely . He's that person who will always understand me, or try to at least . He's that person who I will always get along with . He's that person who I can't imagine my life without . He's that person . He's that one person .

Out to do proj w/ Dessy, Priscilla & Sherice . Homed @ 6 . There's still some drawing need to be done . Mayb ltr then draw . Haha . Slacking now . Opps ! Lol . A short post . School tml again . So sian):

I want to watch fireworks with you .

2010-07-31T19:57:00.002+08:00

You're so important to me .

Back from jp . Went out to pass baby something . Walked walked around with baby & his friend .

Combined rehearsal was okay . Ended @ 2 . Download maplesea . Becoz baby want play . See i so good uh ? Kekes;) As long as he's happy, i'm happy:D Love him maxmax !

I'll nvr leave you, I promise(:

2010-07-31T06:07:00.002+08:00

I love you & i mean it(:

Woke up @ 5AM in the morning to practice Cielito Lindo . And i finally know how to play . Sort of happy . Lol ! Ltr having combined rehearsal @ Yuying . Hope that mryeo dont get angry anymore(:

Do miracles exist ?

2010-07-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

I always needed time on my own . I never thought I'd need you there when I cry .

Somehow, i don't know what i'm feeling . I don't know what i want . I'm at a lost .

Met baby after school . Went home changed then jp . Walked round & round . Homed @ 8 . Haven't study Chemistry yet . Hais ~ No mood to study): Perhaps tml morning . Pray that i can wake up . Everyone is working hard for their upcoming common test . Yet i'm still slacking . What's wrong with me nowadays ? Me myself don't know either . Nothing motivates me):

Where's that feeling ? I'm afraid i lost it):

2010-07-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

I miss you, baby♥

I haven't seen you for 7 days): It's the longest time i nvr get to see you . Sigh ! 48 more days and you're going ns . How i wish time would stop . I want you by my side forever .

Anyway, school as per normal . Stayed back for Cultural Expression Rehearsal . Which was super retard . Waste of time . Chemistry test postpone to Friday . So, i guess i'm gonna slack for today . Haha . But mayb i'll start my revision for Chinese test on Thurs . Hmm, see my mood first . Lol !

I love you, stupid baby(:

2010-07-26T18:32:00.002+08:00

I wish there's a way for me to fall sick . So that i dont have to go school tml ):

I know i shouldn't be having that stupid thought . But i just wish i could have a break . Urgh ! Whatever ! Yet to study for vocab test ): Having a headache now . Guess i'll study tml morning . I'm just so tired !

I trying hard to find back the feeling .

2010-07-25T16:17:00.002+08:00

Perhaps, the only choice i've is to hang on .

After having some time to cool down, i guess i'm feeling better now . I know i cant give up, even though i wish i could . There are many things awaiting for me to be done .

SL workshop was fun . I love what Coach Issac has taught us . I know i'm not a good leader yet . But i'll work harder . Stay back for the Farewell Assembly filming . Wasted 3hr of our time waiting -,- Homed @ 4+ .

A lot of things not done yet . Seem like it's endless . Hais ~ Test tml yet i haven't study a single thing . I'm in a bad bad state now . Really need some time to tidy up my mood & get on with life again . I don't know which day i'll fall and give up . But for this moment, i promise i'll hang on .

I'll hang on . Even though everyone is leaving me .

2010-07-23T20:38:00.003+08:00

I'm totally not in mood now . I dont fucking give a damn anymore . Everything seem so pointless to me . I feel that i'm just like a robot, doing thing just for the sake for doing . Everything is not going smoothly for me . Be it friendship, family, studies or cca . It's all so fuck up . I just feel like putting a stop to everything . I'm so tired alrdy . I really want to give up .

Sometimes i do have silly thought . If i'm not around anymore, will it be better ? Mayb i'll feel better . No one truely understand how i feel . Not even my parents . They give birth to me but they dont fucking care about me . They dont even know what are the problems that i'm facing . They dont even know how stressful i'm now . All they know is to nag at me . Nag nag nag . Will it make things better ? No ! They're just pushing me to the dead end . They dont even know that i'm crying myself to slp every night . So what kind of parents are them ? I really dont know .

I feel so helpless now . I broken now in front of my friend just now . I really cant it anymore . I've been trying to stay strong . But it's seem that the more i want to be strong, the weaker i'm . Crying is the only way i can make myself feel better . Everything really seem so meaningless to me now .

Fuck my life .

2010-07-22T19:15:00.002+08:00

I feel sad whenever i cant give you what you want .

Daydream a lot nowaday in class . Cant concentrate . Hais~ Have a good laugh during English & Chinese lesson . Guess that was the only time i pay 100% attention . Lol ! Jp & homed (:

Hug me tight . So that i know i'm important to you .

2010-07-21T18:52:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, i just feel like crying to make myself feel better .

Life sucks completely . Repeating the same old routine everyday -,- I'm so sick & tired . Fuck my life ! Wonder when can i slow down & really enjoy my life . I doubt i can . Hais~

How nice will it be if the world only consist of you & me .

2010-07-19T18:14:00.002+08:00

Imissyou badly now . How i wish you're by my side .

School seriously sucks . So boring . Can fall aslp . Gonna fail my Math test): Hais !~ Tml release @ 1pm . Happy ^^V Planning to meet baby . Kekes ~

Only you can brighten up my days(:

2010-07-18T19:18:00.004+08:00

Hais~ I'm gonna fail my Maths test tml): I dont understand a single thing . I really have no mood to study . How ? Can someone help me ?

Without you, i'm nothing .

2010-07-18T11:44:00.002+08:00

You make me smile, you make me cry . You make me realise how important you're to me .

Project done(: But h/w are still undone -,- Test tml . Prepare to fail . Lol ! Yesterday meet for project in the morning . After that trained to Kovan . Slacked & homed @ 6 .

I cried . But you nvr realised .

2010-07-17T14:52:00.001+08:00

I'm bored . @ Baby's house now . He pangseh me go arcade find his friends): Until now also havent come back . Think he forget me le . Lol !

Baby faster come back !~

2010-07-16T21:26:00.000+08:00

When you constantly can't stop thinking of him. When you wait for him to go online, or when you wait for a phone call or when you wait for a text. When you see something and it reminds you of him. When you talk about him to your friends, a lot. When you start to read over messages, saved conversations or you replay moments of your life with him in your head. When you realize that when you're out, you look around to see if you "accidentally" bump into him. When you hope to talk late that night again, like you two would used to. When you realize your friends get sick of you talking about him. When you want to hug him again, or kiss him, or just be with him. When you listen to songs and you think "This was our song." When you go somewhere and you reminisce on what happened there with him. When you think of him before you go to sleep. That's when you know you miss him.

2010-07-16T20:40:00.002+08:00

Back from cca . I'm so tired . Really need a break . Many tests are coming up . And i'm so stress): Urgh !

My cough is irritating me -,- Tml going out in the morning . Do socialstudies proj . Scare i overslept . I seriously need some slp now .

Tired):

2010-07-15T19:26:00.004+08:00

On the way home, i realised that there are so many memories of you & me . Time fly when we're tgt . And i hate it when we've to bid goodbye): Just now i've the urge to hug you when you're leaving . But i dont have the courage to . Hais ~ Although it's only a few hours from just now, i'm really missing you a lot now): The kind of feeling is indescribable .

Anyway, school nowadays are considered meaningless to me . I'm just looking forward to the days when i can spend time with him . Got back test paper . Failed my Biology -,- Predictable . Coz i totally dont understand the 2 chapters . Whatever crap ! Work harder next time .

BabyG misses you so much):

2010-07-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

Fuck ! I lost my voice . I want back my voice . Lol !

Had a h2h talk . Make me realise a lot of thing . I realised that i must cherish everyone i've now . I dont want to regret in the further . I really miss baby now . How i wish i can see him now):

Things are not really within our control .

2010-07-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

So that i can wish for you to be by my side, always .

2010-07-13T17:36:00.002+08:00

School = Sian -,-

I'm gonna push myself . I'm gonna study hard & get the result that I want . I'll nvr cry over spilled milk anymore . I wont give a damn about other things anymore . Why give a fuck when someone dont even care ? Only make you seem like a stupid idiot . Everything in this world is fake . Dont care = Happy (:

We are like strangers . Walking past each other as though we were never friends .

2010-07-12T17:31:00.003+08:00

Fuck you, Math ! Confirm fail liao -,- 8marks gone (w/o counting careless mistakes) Whatever ! It's over .

Tiring day . Weather super hot . Headache now . Cant concentrate in class . Mind keep wandering off . SocialStudies was fun . Had great time laughing with them(: Lesson ends at 3.30 . Feel like slping right now :O Yawns ~

So many choices . So many options . Its so hard to know which one is right .

2010-07-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

It's really funny how ironic things are . How people change & feelings fade . How promises can be broken unknowingly . Whatever shyt ! I dont give a damn .

Test tml . And i havent study a single thing -,- Stupid ttm ! Preparing to fail ? I guess so . All the formulae are running away from me . I'm just staring blankly at the questions . Dont know how to solve . Fuck la ! Now, i just want to sleep and forget everything . I dont want to care anymore .

I think i'll be sleeping soon . Will do last minute study tml . Goodnight !

I'm really really very sick & tired .

2010-07-11T12:37:00.002+08:00

2010-07-11T12:27:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhhhh !~ I'm not in the mood to study): Hais ! How i wish i can enjoy myself right now . But i cant .

I miss baby badly right now): Wonder if he know . He had been so good to me & i'm really touched . I didn know i'm so important to him "( Hope that our love will remain the same as day passes(:

♥

2010-07-10T22:10:00.002+08:00

Feeling so tired right now . Spent a whole day outside . My legs very pain . Lol .

Went out in morning . Trained to Kovan . Pei baby go arcade find his friends . Watched them play . Afterthat, went to Plaza Sing with baby and his another friend . Wanted to watch movie but no seat -,- So nvr watch . Have late lunch and arcade again . Followed by pool . Saw a few familiar faces . Cabbed home at 7+ . Thanks baby for sending me home(:

Somehow i dont feel like going to school again . Hais . Tml is Sunday . Havent do my h/w and study for test yet -,- Fuck !

I'm tired of my fucking life .

2010-07-09T22:39:00.001+08:00

I'm missing you badly right now ):

2010-07-09T21:06:00.002+08:00

It's finally Friday again . Happy ^^V Lol .

Things are getting better . And i'm very happy . Although there's still smth that i didn manage to change but i dont want to bother anymore . It's not within my control either .

Had cca today . Great time laughing while discussing about the FA performance . Haha . I'm feeling so tired now . Hope i dont oversleep tml . Lol !

Happy 2nd month, Baby !♥
I Love You

2010-07-05T22:26:00.003+08:00

Spent a day outside today . Baby came over to my house early in the morning . Didn expect him to reach so early . Haha . Slack slack, use comp and went out at 2+ .

Trained to Bugis then Plaza Sing . Made couple ring(: Shopped ard & have lunch . Reached home @ ard 8 . Tml having school again . Another hectic week ):

Even if everyone is leaving me, you'll stay, right ?

2010-07-04T21:11:00.002+08:00

I want to study but i'm simply not in the mood to . There's a lot of things coming up next week . Life is really stressful . Problems are building up one after another . I really cant take it anymore . Feel like giving up . Will break down anytime . Hais ):

I can feel the distance between us . Can you tell me it's just my imagination ?

2010-07-04T15:01:00.003+08:00

I've a lot to say . But i dont know how to put them into words . I am so afraid when i cant feel anything from you . It's a kind of feeling i cant express it out .

I can't promise you a perfect relationship without arguments over our differences and trust issues, however, I can promise you as long as you're trying, I'm staying.

2010-06-30T22:12:00.002+08:00

Today is a reallyreally bad day for me . Hais ! Mayb i'm really not a good friend, I'm sorry .

Lesson & cca . Released at 6 . Had a h2h talk w Aiping(: Thankalot yeah ! Went home @ 6+ . Many things are coming up . Really stressed up . I dont think i can cope w it . Hais !): I hate my life ttm now . No point !

I dont fucking give a damn anymore .

2010-06-28T18:24:00.002+08:00

First day of school . Tiring . Lesson ends at 3:30 -,-

Realised that i've returned all my knowledge to the teachers . Wonderful yeah ? Especially Add. math . Brain really rust alot this holiday . Tml having SocialStudies test . And i havent study yet . The first test after holiday & i'm going to flunk it with 'flying colours' . Lol ! Off-ed to study . Bye;)

I'll be strong .

2010-06-26T17:57:00.002+08:00

Ytd was a badbad day . Had a small fight with baby . But things were alright afterall(: Baby, no matter how bad you're, i'm still willing to bear with you . I'll nvr leave you(:

Went out today with baby . Had greatgreat fun . Went vivo . Supposed to go Sentosa . But many people so nvr go . Haha . Walk walk, slack slack . Went home at around 3+ .

School reopening in one day time . Hais . How time flies ~

2010-06-22T18:08:00.002+08:00

I'm back . Spent a night outside ytd . Had fun ;) Will not elaborate much .

School reopening in 5days time): Sad . No more freedom . Less outings . Aww .. Tml having cca . Sian ttm . Urgh !

Me♥You

2010-06-20T00:09:00.002+08:00

Wheeeez !~ I've completed all my homework . Yeah;) Felt so happy when i finally strike off the last homework on my list ! Haha . I'm totally free now :D

Next week is the last week of holiday . Time seems to pass so quickly . Yet there's still one thing that i haven't been able to do . However, my wish will come true on Monday(: I'm a bit afraid that my mother will find out the truth . Just hope that everything will be alright & nothing goes wrong . Just this time, i promise .

I'm tired alrdy . Slping soon . Goodnight everyone (:

Praying that everything will be fine .