Omg ! Time really flies. It had been almost 9 months since i blogged about my life. This 9 months, many things had happened. Whether happy or sad.

Yup, im still tgt with my baby. Going 1 year le. Fast uh ? And i have graduated from my secondary school life. Everything is coming to an end soon. School, friends, teachers. Will we still keep in touch when we grow old ? Will we rmb all the laughters and tears we all shared ? No one can answer these question. Many years down the road, when we look back, will all these memories still be clearly etched in our mind, like it was just yesterday ?

Actually i dont want all these to end. When i just started to enjoy school, everything is ending. But at least, i left the school with no regrets. Me, and my friends had cleared our misunderstanding and we are fine now. Isnt that good ? I just want everyone to be happy and thats enough.

I always wonder if baby and I can really last forever. Yup, many people does not believe in forever. I dont believe either. Forever only exists in fairytale, isnt it ? But whatever it is, i will still love him with all my heart. He is the one that i wont leave him behind. I will always stand by his side no matter rain or shine. I promise, as long as there is me, i wont let him shed a tear for me. Im willing to do anything, just to make him happy, to see his smile. Coz if he's happy, im happy too. Even though i may not be the reason for his happiness.

I dont know when i will be back to blogging. Maybe 1 year ltr ? Or even longer. Coz life is getting busier. And i have no idea how im gonna cope with it. But lets take one step at a time. All the best, PeiLing ! You can do it de :) Loveyoubaby :)

It's just the 5th day of a new year and it sucks like hell ! Everything is worst than 2010 . I dont know why): Hai ! Just hope that this year will past in a blink of an eye . And things will get better .

Maybe i'm too paranoid . But seeing you sit with her makes me feel uneasy . I dont know why): I guess i think too much . I'm really afraid that i'll lose you): Scare that you'll leave me one day . You promised me you wont . But promise doesn't mean anything . It's just a promise . It can be broken anytime . The feeling is really killing me): Hate this ! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ D:

Yes, today's the first day of 2011 :D And i hope it will be a better yr !

Went to Boonlay countdown ytd with baby, Elaine and her boyf(: Had fun ! Met many of my primary school friends too ! Hehehe ~ I'm so happy that i can spend the first moment of 2011 with my dearest baby(: Ai si ta le<3 Hahaha !

Have been going out for this one week, except for monday . Tuesday went to Orchard, Far East and Bugis with Yushan . Long time never meet her le . Had a great time with her(:

Wednesday went to Bugis and East Coast Park with Baby . Baby spent 30$ on arcade ._. Hahaha ! Trained to East Coast Park afterthat . Rent double bike . Hehehe ! And we built sandcastle also . Found 2 identical seashells . One for me, one for Baby :D

Thursday met Baby in the morning . Went fishing . But i was busy playing Baby's itouch :P Hahaha ! Afterthat, we went to fly kite . Hehehe ! So fun :D I had a lot of first time with Baby :D

Today, Baby came my house pei me . He bought candy floss for me . Hehehe ! So sweet~ Afterthat met mama at jp . Shopped around . Bought an anklet, earrings, tee shirt and mini skirt ^^ Hahaha ! Baby enjoying himself now . Jealous :P Hahaha ! Anyway, today is Christmas eve . Merry Christmas ! :D

All i wanted was you . Simple ?

Yes, it sounds simple . But it's not ! Maybe you didn't realised, but you're always hurting me with your words . All those words may see nothing to you . But you know what ? It's enough to kill me . All i can do is cry, cry and cry . I don't want to let you know . Coz i don't want you to think that i'm weak . I'm paranoid .

This few days when you're away, I've no one to talk to . I'm so scared . But i don't know what i'm scared of . Scared of losing you ? I guess . Somehow, i realised that this love's gonna be difficult . Is just a few weeks of time and we have gone through so much . But i remembered what you said . 'We will make it through rain or shine, coz our love is genuine.' Yes, our love is genuine . But the problem is can we really make it through rain or shine ?

I'm tired now . I've no idea how long i can still hang on . Maybe love was never meant for me . I'm just too naive .

Love is the easiest thing there is . It's the layers of doubt, fear, and expectation that make it complicated .

As you can see, my blogger is really dead . Have been already 1 month since i updated my blog . Time really flies . 2010 is coming to an end . And many things had really changed during this one month . But anyway, now i'm happy . Coz i've my dearest baby with me(: And i hope 2011 will be a better year . Everyone will be happy(:

When 2010 is coming to an end, it means that school holiday is also coming to the end . Two more weeks to school reopen . Another hectic year . O level ! Veryvery important . Lol ! But during this holiday, i guess my brain have rusted . Forgotten alot of things . Sigh !):

Gonna finish all my homework by this week . Left two more weeks to enjoy . Must really make use of the time before i see it fly past me again . HAHAHA !

Goodluck to me and everyone ! 2011 will be a better year :D

To this, i've no answer .

Yes, i have given him another chance after struggling for so long . I dont know if i've made the right choice . But i'm not happy . Not becoz i dont want to be with him, but maybe becoz i've lost a friend, a friend that is so important to me .

Seriously, i still have a lot of doubts in him . I dont know if i could still trust him like i used to . My mind is in a whirl now . And he cant be by my side ): Hai ~

Darren, i dont know if you will see this, but i doubt you will . To say the truth, i feel sad losing a friend like you . You did once made my life beautiful . Without you, i cant be happy for the past few months . Its a regret that we ended up like this . If i had a choice, i wouldn't want this to happen . But reality is cruel . I'm really sorry towards you . I know i had hurt you in a way or another . I really wish i can make it up for you . But i guess its impossible . I should just disappear from your life . I really dont know how to face you this coming friday . Hai ): I'm really sorry .